Thursday, February 28, 2008


February 28, 2008
11:18 AM

Hey folks,

I’ve spent the last couple of weeks going over the decision I’ve ultimately reached. I’m going to quit the blog. It’s been more of a gut-wrenching decision than one would think, but deep in my heart, I know it’s time for a new thing—for me at least.

I will continue writing, as I am working on a book. The first hints of spring have my attention captured already. The reading I’ve left off due to a real lack of concentration fully beckons the need in me for a new story, somebody else’s story—I’m thinking a few belts of Dickens is highly in order. My sister, after thirty years, could be moving to the beautiful state of Texas. I suspect most blog readers are on MySpace and I’m already so sick of politics and all things negative, that I truly don’t know how I’ll make it to November without screaming. (So, Mom, you’ll have to send emails to your comrades! ;)
I’ve started doing just a small bit of volunteer work.

As you can see, I don’t really know the reason, but I do feel like I’m trying to put life into something that I believe has ran its course. Maybe sometimes it really is better to just let things go when their course is finished.

Naturally, I will keep the blog open. I’m always up for any comments from any of Aaron’s brothers or any of my blogger friends, and those will always reach me by my email.

I have so many photos on the blog that it takes a great deal of time for it to load. I’ll keep the photos there as they are a gift from me to any of you who would care to look again or capture some of your own.

I can’t express just yet what this blogging time has meant to me. Just short of two years, it gave me a way out of myself and into the lives of others. So many of those others have become friends that I hope I’ll have forever.

I will always be a Gold Star Mom, and I will always grieve for my son. These things are inseparable from the person I began to grow into nearly four years ago, but even that is changing. Sometimes it’s as hard as it was on that first day (this very moment for example)—I’m not much of one for goodbyes, but still, it is four years later—it becomes more personal, or maybe understood as something that has to be worked out in a multitude of ways.

I’ve reached a stage in my life that I know if I’m to continue healing, then I have to continue growing, searching. Maybe outside of Aaron. I don’t know. It breaks my heart to even think that, and I don’t know what God has in store for me, but somehow, I feel as if I’m going to have to step outside my doors more to find it.

My heart, always,


Gawfer said...

Dear friend,

I will miss you sorely if you stop posting comments on other blogs... like this ol' squid's.

You are a true Patriot, with a genuine heart, and though Gawfer hasn't visited much, you will be missed. Please take care of yourself.

With love and admiration,


Semper Fi Mom said...

We're going to miss you! Please continue to keep in touch.

Much love!

Raymond Keen said...


In "The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to Timothy," Paul writes:

"I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith."
(2 Timothy 4:7)

What Paul wrote applies to you.

Semper Fi,


Just John said...


I'm sad to see you hanging it up, but I fully understand; I've had the desire myself at times. I just stubbornly hang on I guess.

I wish you well in whatever endeavors you undertake. With your strength and character, I'm sure that you will do well in anything that you attempt.

With warmest regards,


Anonymous said...

My Dear sweet Lil' De'on,

I totally understand. I'm so happy I have your Email address so I can keep talking to the MOST beautiful soul I've ever known. I still think of you, Aaron and Sgt Rett on a daily basis. I will forever love and pray for you. God Bless You and your family. I will be in your mail box (I already am about five times to day!) Boy oh Boy what I'd give to hear what your Mom has to say about the politics the past week and a half. LOL
I love you!

De'on Miller said...

Hello and thanks to all! We're good here and I'm working on the book, so I'm definitely at the keyboard, just in a different way!

Diane, you should get Mom to e-mail. If she'd take the time to learn to post herself, I'd promise you the entertainment you crave, but then again, our houses might be burned to the ground!! ;)